Wednesday, 10 February 2016

Let's start at the very beginning...


You may have noticed (or you probably haven't) that things have gone a little silent over on my twitter and blog these last few days. I seem to forever go through peaks and troughs with regards to this blog but recently I've felt that no matter how much I try and through myself back into it, I'll never get it back to where it once was. Now I think I'm at a point where I've accepted that and therefore this blog is now solely for me. I was being too strict on myself by saying "only one baby or pregnancy post per week" and giving myself a routine of Mummy Mondays and then beauty on Wednesday and Friday and then a Video on Sunday... It's making my head spin just thinking about it. A routine may have worked for me when I had more time or head space, and a routine may be the "best" thing for readership but the best thing for me is to go with the flow.
I was thinking back the other day to when I was truly happiest with my blog, it was before the stresses of travelling the length and breadth of the country for fear of missing out on events. Before comparing what PR samples my fellow bloggers got sent that I was looked over for and before desperately trying to keep "in" with the latest blogger cliques and chats. Essentially, it was right at the very start. I didn't post on a set day, I posted about whatever took my fancy that day, whether it was a hack on my horse, a new lipstick or even about my tricks for eBay! I had no "blogger friends" (although those that I do now, I truly cherish) and it didn't bother me whether or not I had the latest Gwen Stefani for Urban Decay launch because I had no-one but Tanya Burr to compare myself to.
Don't get me wrong, I have a wonderful relationship with Clarins and not only do I value them as a "contact', I genuinely see them as friends and they were one of the first people in the blogging world who I told about conceiving Sophie! I do lust for the coveted "Blogger Mail" but seeing others get parcels from brands that used to contact me but now don't, doesn't fill be with jealousy anymore. I need to be happy for them and move on. Everyone seems so hung up on "SEO" and "traffic" and "analytics" and "DA scores" and for what? If it's your job then I get that, but for me it's a hobby and I don't have the time nor the inclination to get so invested into what is essentially an online diary. I shouldn't get upset because all of my photos don't have the correct titles or my links aren't all squeaky clean. When did blogging become more about HTML and internet algorithms than people spreading the word about what they love?
The blog needs to, and will, get back to the diary of Becka Shepherd that it started. It was a platform to use my writing skills, a means to an end when I was unemployed and a happy distraction from a pretty crappy home life. I'm not saying that I've gone back to such lows but it needs to follow me and my life. If I want to post 24/7 about Sophie and lists of baby things, then I will. If I want a simple post of a few photos of a day out with my dog, then I shall post one. If I want to purchase and review a new, not so new or down right old lipstick then that's the post I'll write. Either way, this blog needs to go back to being about me and less about everybody else.

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